redundant petrol kiosk at larkin
Msia Ice mint packaging. Sg one nicer...Practically rot at home the whole day. First of all, i wanna apologise to my Airen.
对不起. Actually i can go out today just that i was waiting for a call thats why i lied and said that i cant go out. Pls forgive me. If i had known earlier, i'd definately be there with you. 不要生我的气~ Next week pei you go eat hum drink beer *winks
Went to Msia in the end with Kean Boon. Hmm.. to be very honest, thats the 1st time i felt stressful going in. Stopped over at money changer and AM ACTUALLY LEFT ALONE IN THE CAR, WITH THE WINDOWS DOWN, DOORS UNLOCK! Jesus christ... 1 ah neh came over kay siao clean he car. 我真的被吓死. That asshole walk over to my side to clean the mirrors. Before he came over i had the windows up and I DUNNO HOW TO LOCK HIS CAR! I was literally holding on to the door. Jus in case that nut tries to open it. He came back and kaobeh.
Him: Wha lau.. clean already more dirty lor (pek chek look on his face.)
me: hahaha. i tink that man siao wan.
Went off to pump petrol and den back to Sg. Cars on the road tonight abit weird weird. I mean the way they drive. So prone to accidents.
Surf the net for air tickets to get out of Singapore for a short break. Sick of this place as well as things happening around me. Well, Singapore is definately not a place i wanna stay in. If i got this bloody chance to get out of here, i would. Not because of the rules - thou its kinda sickening. But the society. People around you, u wouldnt know wad kinda plans they have on you. Come to think of it, its abit scary ya? Turned paranoid because of all these irritants. So much said, littlemissme decided to go Hongkong again for good. Only there i guess i can be much like myself. Nice food, nice sightings, nice people? I dunno but definately nice place to vent my anger on by shopping. Littlemissme wanna visit disneyland, again. Thats where i find happiness haha. Say i behave like a kid, basically i've got no childhood. Somehow decided to spent lonely valentine there. Jus nice after CNY. Not bad uh? Hope everything goes smoothly so that i could get my ass there by den. Was planning to go bangkok - another shoppin paradise. But uh-uh.. kinda dangerous and scary. Looking forward to Feb (=
New chapter of life jus started today.
欣怡终于明白了一切. I didnt believe in the "it takes 2hands to clap" logic. Or should i say i refused to. Somehow today, i have to agree with that. In the past, i used to think that even if the other half refuse to contribute anything, its alright. As long as i played my part in the role, it would be good enough. And thinking that i'd won the battle if im willing to sarcifice everything for the 1 i've chosen. I was so wrong and naive. It wasnt like this at all. Infact, to lose... And to lose with nothing left. Tired of waitng. Have been waiting all the time. Wad i want is forever that simple. But i jus dont understnad why! Why people around me tried to complicate my life? They like it that way? Or wad? Well, i've seen thru everytink. 只要笑一笑,就没事了 (=
to you : Am back from where i went. Didnt want to call u back becus i dunno wad to say. And i noe without fail u'll be here reading away when u are bored. I wasnt mad at you. Because i dun have the rights to do so. U noe the reasons why. Admit that i was reali at my top at first. But right after that, jus disappointed. Upset, by the words u said and stuffs. Am not unreasonable but afterall, i do have feelings - im a human. Maybe i just threw in too much feelings at one go. Hence, feeling this way. Till tis very moment, am stil thinking.. how u felt. Isit really true that im the only one playing part? I've got all the question marks up there, the insecure feeling. I really dont wanna be bothered by all tis as i reali had enough. If wad i said was wrong, i hope to get an answer - Actions speaks louder den words. And i hope it wouldnt be words again. Cus am too afraid to hear anything. I'd be waiting. I hope u wont disappoint me again. But If u know that u gonna hurt me, stay away. Alright? After saying so much, i felt uneasy. Cus i dunno wad the outcome would be like and i... ( xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.)
